Yes, I never stop giving thanks for all of you, my readers! This post is a little later than usual; I’ll try and gather my thoughts into some semblance of order.
This is day 3 of my 21 day Daniel Fast. Jentezen Franklin says the 2nd and 3rd days are the hardest because your body’s trying to adjust to the change in diet. Yesterday was a day filled with a prayer meeting, ice skating, shopping at Aldi’s for veggies, the post office, and getting my ring inspected. It was a day filled with chances to break down and buy treats I’m determined not to eat and spend money I really don’t have, but I count the Lord faithful to guide me by the Spirit to turn from these temptations. With yesterday and today being days of humble myself and confess the sins my heart & flesh are finally giving up, repentance is the word for today.
Well, today I spent the morning shoveling snow off our driveway so it can melt as the day warms up. This meant I did not read the fasting journal and Moravian Daily Texts until after lunch. Both books talk about sins and repentance. Today’s Daily Text watchword is:
You have looked for much, and, lo, it came to little; and when you brought it home, I blew it away. Why? says the Lord of Hosts. Because my house lies in ruins, while all of you hurry off to your own houses. Haggai 1:9
This verse led me to think of so many things I’ve spent my time and money on in the past year. How many of those things did I end up reselling at a deep discount or giving away because they did not fulfill what I expected? Where could I have spent that money and it would have produced eternal treasure; or NOT spent it, honoring my husband? How could I have avoided being reprimanded by my husband, spending time hoping he wouldn’t find out where I spent my money or stuffing all this down into my heart’s deep recesses by justifying my spending? Praise be to God, The Spirit searches our hearts, shining a light on them to show us the wicked ways that keep us from intimacy with the Lord! I don’t want to get into “sloppy grace” and just say it’s all O.K. I want to be washed clean by the blood of Christ; REPENTANCE!
I’m sure this is just the tip of the iceberg as far as things I’ve covered up instead of quickly repenting of. I’m excited to be on this time of fasting to give God room to clean my body, soul and spirit. For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God’s. (1 Corinthians 6:20) I want to return to obedience and a true fear of God and His greatness rather than my own perceived greatness.
I leave you with part of Moravian Hymn 615 that’s included in the Daily Text:
God, grant me the strength to do with ready heart and willing,
whatever You command, my calling here fulfilling;
and do it when I ought, with zeal and joyfulness;
and bless the work I’ve wrought, for You must give success.