Late September Musings

shanah tovahShanah Tovah! Welcome to Jewish New Year! Break out the apple slices and honey – dipping apples in honey one year in our church was enjoyed immensely-to celebrate a new year in God’s calendar . Did you know all the days of the week and months of the year on our Gregorian calendar were named in honor of Greek gods? We are in the year 2019, but September 30 (Feast of Trumpets/Rosh Hodesh) the Jewish calendar begins year 5780. That means the Jews count over 3,000 more years of history in the “common era” than we do (and go by 10 month years instead of 12). I’m brimming with interesting facts today!

cropped-win_20171016_16_10_40_proDr. Kevin Zadai’s videos are high on my YouTube watching again this week. He’s given me many new revelations. One is that Holy fire flows out from under God’s throne along with the river of life. I accepted a dose of Holy Spirit Fire Kevin was imparting, laying prostrate on my living room floor as I let it consume my flesh and fill me with more of Jesus. I  went to bed rejoicing in all that we have in Christ and got into the Psalms in my Tecarta TLV Bible on my phone. I began reading the Psalms of Ascent that the Pilgrims recited/sang on their way up to God’s holy mountain in Jerusalem. Yes, Psalm 122 (in the top photo) was one of them and  ended with Psalm 139, marveling again at the Lord’s intimate knowledge of me and His complete care for all that concerns me.

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Speaking of night watches (Psalm 63:6, 119:148), I awoke at 3:18 AM. I began speaking/singing in unknown tongues, started declaring the truth that I am healed and reminding the devil where he’s headed. Prompted by the Spirit, I got out of bed (which I’ve hardly ever done during the night watches) and went and got my communion elements and brought them to the foot of my bed. After partaking of the elements, I re-sanctified my marriage bed, then sang deliverance and healing over both sides of the bed. I spoke life, healing and Shalem (restoration/restitution) over several other things concerning me and continued to sing praises and in other tongues until about 4:18 AM.  remembering and claiming:

Psalm 127:2 It is useless for you to work so hard from early morning until lat at night, anxiously working for food to eat; for God gives rest to his loved ones. TLV

hamoc sleep I settled in for sweet sleep and sweet dreams from Father God and awoke after 9 AM! Getting up, sensing I was taller than usual, I believe the scoliosis in my back is being straightened! I had a split lower lip Tuesday evening, but noticed it wasn’t there Wednesday evening! When I was prostrate yesterday afternoon, I had a little hitch in my left hip. I sensed the Spirit encouraging me into a plank position and felt my body coming into alignment and the hip pain disappeared…There’s truly healing in the name of Jesus! One of the things Kevin encourage was to learn to be a good receiver. There’s things flowing from the throne constantly. I’m learning with his encouragement to reach out and take hold of what’s offered.img_20190808_143630452

Psalm 121:7-8 The LORD keeps you from all harm and watches over your life. The LORD keeps watch over you as you come and go, both now and forever. TLV

We truly serve a great God who is ever-present! May you experience more of His goodness this week as you press in for more. I pray your relationship increases and revelation comes through the Holy Spirit to encourage you. Ask Father God to open your books in heaven and to lead you in the good things He’s planned for you as per Jeremiah 29, Psalm 139 and Ephesians 2:10. Until next week, SHALOM!




Supernatural Finances?

computer screen Please forgive me for not carving out time to post last week. This week, I want to give you a small taste of Dr.Kevin L. Zadai’s new book/videos/study guide: SUPERNATURAL FINANCES Heaven’s Blueprint For Blessing & Increase. Let’s start with this passage in Malachi:

Do Not Rob God

something smellsMalachi 3:8 “Will a man rob God?
Yet you have robbed Me!
But you say,
‘In what way have we robbed You?’
In tithes and offerings.
You are cursed with a curse,
For you have robbed Me,
Even this whole nation.
10 Bring all the tithes into the storehouse,
That there may be food in My house,
And try Me now in this,”
Says the Lord of hosts,
If I will not open for you the windows of heaven
And pour out for you such blessing
That there will not be room enough to receive it.11 “And I will rebuke the devourer for your sakes,

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So that he will not destroy the fruit of your ground,
Nor shall the vine fail to bear fruit for you in the field,”
Says the Lord of hosts;
12 “And all nations will call you blessed,
For you will be a delightful land,
Says the Lord of hosts. 

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Tithing seems to be a”dirty word” to many these days. God gave us the tithe for our own good. That 10% belongs to God just like the tree of the knowledge of good & evil in the garden belonged to God. If we follow His rules and give His portion back to Him, it reminds us that we are NOT God, even though we who believe in Jesus Christ are children of Father God. As parents, we have things that are ours that are not for our children because these things would not be good for them at their age. As a good Father, God does also. This doesn’t mean parents don’t want the best for their children. Let’s look at the testimony of God’s care and provision for the Israelite’s 40 years in the wilderness.


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   Nehemiah 9:20 

You also gave Your good Spirit to instruct them,
And did not withhold Your manna from their mouth,
And gave them water for their thirst.
21 Forty years You sustained them in the wilderness;
They lacked nothing;
Their clothes did not wear out
And their feet did not swell.     

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Can you imagine not having to buy food, water, clothing or shoes and not suffering from swollen feet for 40 years? This verse in Nehemiah came to me as I was walking this morning. I looked down at my hiking shoes I wear a lot and began wondering how much longer before I’ll need a new pair. What if I can trust my heavenly Father to keep this pair from wearing any more to last for another 30-40 years? What about my sneakers I keep for exercise? There are so many shoe stores around and so many “fabulous” sales, how often do YOU replace your sneakers/shoes/boots? What about clothing?…

I’ve been tithing and giving offerings out of my money I get from odd jobs since I was taught about tithing as a young believer. I may run low on funds, but I’ve never run out. I’ve never been without food, clothing, etc. The money is there when I want to sign up for special events and for gas for my car, also for mission trips and to support others. I use at least 10% of my gas for the Lord’s work, I’ve been sharing at least 10% of our garden produce, I use at least that much time for the ministries the Lord has given me each week. On top of the 10%, I give when I have opportunity.


Here’s a testimony of God rebuking the devourer: two weeks ago, the motel was busy and my boss told me to come after church to help. My whole morning was planned around work and was my focus. When I got to the motel, boss said “didn’t you get my text?” I hadn’t checked my phone since I left for church. She and the other two workers had completed most of the rooms and didn’t think they needed me, but I spent two hours working, which would have taken the other workers at least another hour to finish. I also got over $40.00 in tips and $24.00 added to my paycheck that I would not have had if I’d checked my phone. Kevin Zadai said the devil’s in charge of worldly finances and doesn’t even want us to have a paycheck. I believe because I trust the Lord with my finances (not perfectly yet…) He rebuked the devourer’s plans that day! I had money to sign up for a conference that’s coming to our church and also pay for that week’s gas because of those finances.

I’m eager to learn more from Dr. Kevin and the Bible and see how much more I can trust the Lord and walk in all that’s needed to do my part in bringing the Kingdom of God here on earth. The Gospel is free, but to do the work needed to spread it costs money.

SHALOM my dear readers!

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What is Your Passion?

friendsI recently finished reading How To Live Out Of A Dream by Tommy Reid & Aimee Reid-Sych. On page 111 Aimee lists three things to define for yourself.

Know your Position

Identify your Passion

Strengthen your Posture

I focus on my notes about Identifying my Passion(s):

  • Babies

  • Worship/singing

  • Sharing Biblical revelation with others

  • Wanting to see God’s Glory; including healings

  • Storming heaven instead of hearing litanies of woes and negativity that glorify demons

  • Hugging and praying with people

image000000_8I wrote this while lying in bed August 30th, I put emojis before each item, then prayed in tongues for a few minutes,breaking out in hysterical Holy Spirit laughter (have you ever experienced being drunk in the Spirit as happened to the 120 on Pentecost in Acts 1?) until I had a chest ache and then all I could say was “Yes, yes, yes! Yes, yes, yes! Yes, Yes, thank You Holy Spirit. Thank You Father God. Thank You Father God, You are my God and I am your daughter; I am your child and I thank You for sweet sleep and sweet dreams.

Next I remembered Kevin Zadai mentioning living to 120? He said God is changing people’s eating and lifestyle and many are having their youth renewed to be here on earth as a manifest child of God, to be part of the work God has to be done in this era of history. He and Dan Mohler both say they have no thought of dying any time soon, there’s a lot more the Lord has for them to do.  Three years ago the Lord led me to drastically change my eating and exercise/activities. I’ve noticed things that used to bother me no longer do; that I’m as healthy as I was (or more than) I was at 18. By His grace, I’m on a new path and know my relationship with the Lord is growing. If it’s God’s will, I am willing to live another 64 years by His strength. I’ve just heard plans are in the works to manipulate bodies to live 120 years, but that’s not the way I want to do it; that would mean manipulation of the body to change DNA or something of the sort. If that’s the case, I’m not reaching for that goal!

sleeping I end with a short dream I had that may help someone else. 

I was walking on a village street. I’d stopped and was watching a young lady doggedly climbing something like a tower or high climbing wall. I am with her hasty fiance (they’d quickly decided to marry and he’s having second thoughts), helping him realize what her passions are as he’s watching her do this daring feat. I’m telling him what a good thing she is for him, hold on tight, don’t let her go… for him to let her be what she is and his part of the equation will fit in with her.

In closing:Child, you are Mine

Musings on Love and Fear

A whirlwind appearance of Holy Spirit This photo is from Kat Kerr’s   When I was newly baptized in the Holy Spirit and speaking in tongues, in a Sunday evening service we all joined together singing in the Spirit and this photo is similar to the vision I saw during that harmonious time. The Supernatural of God is still really thrilling to me over 30 years later!

Let’s delve a bit into God’s love since the Spirit seems to be drawing me into studying it.

1 Corinthians 13:4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked,]thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

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Paul starts this chapter telling us if we do mighty things for God but don’t have love, we are nothing. Verses 4-8a describe the love of God and the qualities that will grow in us as we come into deeper relationship with the Lord. Valiant effort to “do” love falls short without the Spirit of God working in us.

Love never fails. But whether there are prophecies, they will fail; whether there are tongues, they will cease; whether there is knowledge, it will vanish away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part. 10 But when that which is ]perfect has come, then that which is in part will be done away.

69v We walk in love imperfectly in this life, but can grow as we get more revelation of the Father’s love for us. Hallelujah! As we seek Him, we find a deeper relationship and become more like our Lord and Brother Jesus Christ!

11 When I was a child, I spoke as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child; but when I became a man, I put away childish things. 12 For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known.

HamanWhere does fear come from? Well, think about the original sin; Eve entertained doubt that God had their best interest in mind when the serpent (devil) posed the question: “Did God REALLY say…?” Being children of Adam and Eve, we were born with sin nature that includes fear and unbelief, among other things. Have I mentioned God told us in 366 Bible passages not to fear? (I know this thanks to Richard Wurmbrand)

Let’s look at a couple passages that show “love verses fear”.

Isaiah 51:12“I, even I, am he who comforts you.
Who are you that you fear mere mortals,
human beings who are but grass,
13 that you forget the Lord your Maker,
who stretches out the heavens
and who lays the foundations of the earth,
that you live in constant terror every day
because of the wrath of the oppressor,
who is bent on destruction?
For where is the wrath of the oppressor? (NIV)

Is that meWe have choices each day: What to think, what to do, what to say… We can turn to the truth of God or play into the devil’s hand by listening to the lies, bad reports, entertaining vain imaginations… Do you realize most of the things we spend time thinking/worrying about never happen? I recall many trips home from visiting my grandparents, Mom would spend the trip worrying about how she could care for them when they couldn’t live on their own any more. By the time they needed help, she’d already moved to Western New York and my grandparents came to live with my family. God’s grace was sufficient for us to care for them. I am so thankful for my relationship with Father God through Christ Jesus and the comfort and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I’ve learned a lot the past few years about trusting, walking in love and giving fear a boot in the pants. I’m not saying I’m perfected, but by grace I’m learning more each day. Here’s another passage that tells us not to be afraid.

Joel 2:20b Surely he has done great things!
21 Do not be afraidland of Judah;
be glad and rejoice.
Surely the Lord has done great things!
22 Do not be afraid, you wild animals,
for the pastures in the wilderness are becoming green.
The trees are bearing their fruit;
the fig tree and the vine yield their riches.
23 Be glad, people of Zion,
rejoice in the Lord your God,
for he has given you the autumn rains
because he is faithful.
He sends you abundant showers,
both autumn and spring rains, as before.
24 The threshing floors will be filled with grain;
the vats will overflow with new wine and oil. (NIV)

thank youLet’s pray, fast, and meditate on God’s Word. Then, as we focus on Truth, let’s walk in love and serve others. I pray we all grow deep in relationship with the Lord and the grace to walk in love. When we speak truth, may it be in God’s love. Lord, let us see others the way You see them. Amen.

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God Before, Ahead, Upon you!


I’ve been listening to Pastor Kevin Zadai’s Warrior Notes. He referenced Psalm 139 in The Passion Translation,so I got into my Kindle to see it for myself.You can check it out:  I will share two other Bible versions, then what I remember of Kevin’s talk.

Psalm 139:3-6 You are so intimately aware of me, Lord.
You read my heart like an open book
and you know all the words I’m about to speak
before I even start a sentence!
You know every step I will take before my journey even begins.
You’ve gone into my future to prepare the way,
and in kindness you follow behind me
to spare me from the harm of my past.[a]
With your hand of love upon my life,
you impart a blessing to me.  TPT

Psalm 139:5 You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. NIV

139:5 You have [b]hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me. NKJ

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In Pastor Kevin Zadai’s Warrior Notes on YouTube, he further explains this awesome section of Scripture. “This means the LORD has been to the end of your book – your life story – and come back to where you are to stand behind and shield you from the hurts of your past and lead you ahead.” I love the fact that His hand of blessing is upon us so we don’t easily step out of the place where He needs us to be. Let’s connect the above Scriptures with what Apostle Paul said in Philippians 3:

Philippians 3:13 Brethren, I do not count myself to have [d]apprehended; but one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,14 I press toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. NKJ

I want to leave you with another view of the Lord’s blessings I see from my back yard. I pray you experience revelation that brings you closer in your relationship with Father God, the Lord Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. It’s the ultimate relationship that will last for eternity! Walk in love and forgiveness as you journey on in this life, giving thanks and praise for all He has done and is doing on your behalf. Amenimg_20190630_181241733



Early August musings

IS GOD REAL?  This is the latest book published that I’ve had a hand in proofing/editing. I highly recommend this to those seeking an intelligent view on Christianity among other religions. Gary included some pretty amazing facts I hadn’t known in this book; I highly recommend it! You can find it at:[date_added]=DESC

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This has been a busy week with family, friends and loved ones. I’ve been picking blueberries and Tuesday found if I pick two pails of berries for the winery, I get to keep a third I fill for payment. It takes me about an hour to pick about a gallon of berries. If you’re anywhere near, you can find this deal and MUCH more at scroll down to the You-Pick section. It’s an amazing place just outside the small village of Lowville, New York!

Good thing the motel is not busy this week; I’ve finally got time for my 8 year old granddaughter Nataleigh to spend a long weekend with me. She just did a great job in her first show with the Super Stage summer program at Lowville Central School: Madagascar Jr. I’m so thankful for the things they offer for elementary students in the summer. My publisher just gave me another book to edit, so I’ll try and remember to let you know when this one’s published; it’s a novel based on the author’s life. This posting is late because the berries and my own garden are demanding attention and I’m so glad my granddaughter is here to help today. Tomorrow we’ll go to Henderson’s Heritage Day at the Historical Society grounds. After that, our Life Group from church is having a BBQ get-together.

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I’ve been listening to a  lot of Dan Mohler’s short teachings today and he’s always a challenge, encouragement, and good for me to hear! His messages and insights are so simple and so profound at the same time. I encourage you to look up his videos on YouTube.

I leave you with another amazing photo of God’s billboard; Heaven touching earth!img_20190713_201328560

Part Two: How to Handle Sexual Desires as a Single Christian Woman

I couldn’t have said it better; truth for young, single men as well!

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There is a part two to this “How to Handle Sexual Desires as a Single Christian Woman,” type post, and if you want, you can read part one here, but you most certainly can continue reading this one regardless of reading the first one; however, I highly suggest reading it, for I do believe that we need to begin talking about how to handle sexual desires in the Christian women community, for I believe that sometimes, we can shut off these conversations without speaking about the importance of it.

As I began in part one, sex was created by God for married couples, and sex is only bad when it is done outside the confines of marriage. However, we sometimes, unintentionally, slip into the thinking of “let’s never talk about the good. and only focus on why we should not have sex until marriage,” and while I do agree…

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